hope. in the oxford dict haha it says desire for sth to happen, combined with the expectation that IT WILL happen.
from what i see, its not wrong to hope. sometimes its sth that keeps u going. sometimes its sth good. or better, a new hope. a new life. a new chapter. ul feel new again. u feel uve given a second chance to either live or relive ur life or repent or just simply moving on.
it is wrong to hope n promise. in some certain way. well its not actually but partly it is. i feel we shudnt hope nor promise anything. coz frankly speaking, we dont know what will happen. i mean i may die here right now while writing this post. n u cant say what u dont know. so do u really know whats gonna happen in the future that ur gona hope n promise ? i guess not. in certain things i mean. but to say i promise ul have my back, my support n bla3. yes, u definitely can. but still it depends. dont get it into ur head so much.
dont hope or dream or set ur expectations so high. or way tooo highhh. one, if u dont get it, ul totally fail. then ul be hanging on a string. two dont let fantasy n stuff get into ur head. i mean u can hope but there must be a limit. know the lines between whats real, what CAN REALLY happen and what ur just simply using ur heart n sweet mouth to say. but in the end, u really dont know whats gonna happen actually.
what i like the most about u is yes ur very matured. well not matured actually, u think a lot. u have a mind of ur own. u plan but its so unplanned. haha. dont get it i know. it falls into place nicely. and never fail to surprise me. perhaps with u trying or not i dont know. u are quite well prepared. n u dont like to talk about things that we are not sure of. yeah rite now i realize its a waste of time. at that time, i was to carried away. by being young n not thinking n not knowing things. by all means im still 16. haha.
rite now, in my mind i think about my family. my future. my life. not like me being in fantasy n wonderland n being carried away. well it does happen for sure. but im still on earth. its actually nice to feel ur feet standing on the ground. its like ur having a fun time but still ur in reality. thats what i call sweet. ^_^ it sounds real.
u dont hope for so much.n thats the best. i dont know whether ur giving ur everything, well i dont think u do, n i like it very much. n i hope u dont. i hope i dont too. but i know uve open a bit, n i dont think uve ever done it to anyone. i thinkk. n im not gona push u, nor ask u to tell me everything. or anything actually. its ur choice to tell me or not. if ur not comfortable, ur not ready or confident, then just dont. im having or had a hard time myself. getting use to things. open up again. being normal again. tho i know i havent much but im just letting it be. there will be a time. and u waited.patiently. u gave me alottt of time. n uve never pushed me. u let me come to my own terms. u helped, but u let me get up on my own. u let me be n let myself just whatever. haha. n thats really nice. no pressure huh ? ^_^
n yeah, good to hear im not the only one who is worried. haha. seriously, i wish i havent met u. then i wudnt feel so bad. haha. for once in my life, ive never thot i would refuse to get away from this place. this is just so weird. haha
there is no point of worrying also actually. or thinking what is going to happen or wont really happen. u just have to wait n see when the time comes. but yet again, what if it turns out ugly. firstly, be prepared. but howww..
haish. this sucks. haha. so bottom line is. i dont want to hope. i just want to live my life day by day. n oh shit. my holidays !
from what i see, its not wrong to hope. sometimes its sth that keeps u going. sometimes its sth good. or better, a new hope. a new life. a new chapter. ul feel new again. u feel uve given a second chance to either live or relive ur life or repent or just simply moving on.
it is wrong to hope n promise. in some certain way. well its not actually but partly it is. i feel we shudnt hope nor promise anything. coz frankly speaking, we dont know what will happen. i mean i may die here right now while writing this post. n u cant say what u dont know. so do u really know whats gonna happen in the future that ur gona hope n promise ? i guess not. in certain things i mean. but to say i promise ul have my back, my support n bla3. yes, u definitely can. but still it depends. dont get it into ur head so much.
dont hope or dream or set ur expectations so high. or way tooo highhh. one, if u dont get it, ul totally fail. then ul be hanging on a string. two dont let fantasy n stuff get into ur head. i mean u can hope but there must be a limit. know the lines between whats real, what CAN REALLY happen and what ur just simply using ur heart n sweet mouth to say. but in the end, u really dont know whats gonna happen actually.
what i like the most about u is yes ur very matured. well not matured actually, u think a lot. u have a mind of ur own. u plan but its so unplanned. haha. dont get it i know. it falls into place nicely. and never fail to surprise me. perhaps with u trying or not i dont know. u are quite well prepared. n u dont like to talk about things that we are not sure of. yeah rite now i realize its a waste of time. at that time, i was to carried away. by being young n not thinking n not knowing things. by all means im still 16. haha.
rite now, in my mind i think about my family. my future. my life. not like me being in fantasy n wonderland n being carried away. well it does happen for sure. but im still on earth. its actually nice to feel ur feet standing on the ground. its like ur having a fun time but still ur in reality. thats what i call sweet. ^_^ it sounds real.
u dont hope for so much.n thats the best. i dont know whether ur giving ur everything, well i dont think u do, n i like it very much. n i hope u dont. i hope i dont too. but i know uve open a bit, n i dont think uve ever done it to anyone. i thinkk. n im not gona push u, nor ask u to tell me everything. or anything actually. its ur choice to tell me or not. if ur not comfortable, ur not ready or confident, then just dont. im having or had a hard time myself. getting use to things. open up again. being normal again. tho i know i havent much but im just letting it be. there will be a time. and u waited.patiently. u gave me alottt of time. n uve never pushed me. u let me come to my own terms. u helped, but u let me get up on my own. u let me be n let myself just whatever. haha. n thats really nice. no pressure huh ? ^_^
n yeah, good to hear im not the only one who is worried. haha. seriously, i wish i havent met u. then i wudnt feel so bad. haha. for once in my life, ive never thot i would refuse to get away from this place. this is just so weird. haha
there is no point of worrying also actually. or thinking what is going to happen or wont really happen. u just have to wait n see when the time comes. but yet again, what if it turns out ugly. firstly, be prepared. but howww..
haish. this sucks. haha. so bottom line is. i dont want to hope. i just want to live my life day by day. n oh shit. my holidays !
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