really, thanks shen yee. after the talk, it really made me feel like i really have to sit down and think and decide what im gonna do. since i have till the end of this year, i think its time for me to get serious. remember the career search tingy ? yeahh i better do it now. now i say. haha. n get serious with my life for a moment. for once at least. n to realize that i, one day, will have to work my ass off and earn a living n feed n survive on my own.
n that i have spm next year.
if i feel that im not gona make it to 8a plus or 9a plus n secure a scholarship, i think i should not take spm n waste my time. even if at all i can get 10a plus, which for now im not that sure, will i get scholarship ? with my curricular activities like that, i dont think they would even look at me. n then after that if i dont get scholarship, i have to go for private. abeh dah cita.
if i think private school would brighten up my future, then i may go.
well it all depends on me n my brain n ability actually. i would have to cram almost 12 grades in a year n take SAT instead of SPM.
but then again, i may not go. heheh. ^_^
but dangg. a part say xyah la buang masa, another part say why not la ? ive been wanting this for such a long time. n dont ask me y my mum is so ok with it this time. n she kept saying this thing. sth must have happened while i was gone. wuuuuu ~ but dady wud slap my face n kill me. haha !
nk kata buang duet, i dont think so. xla sgt. kot. i still go ttn every other nite, n cram dgn kk n skola kalo still go on. this its 730 til 1, get books from em n 450 bux. kalo ttn i spend ok 120 bux cmtu. plus school n whtnot. sooooo. still i dont know.
uish. serious. pening. i need some space.
n yeah. i need everyone to SHUT UP till i feel better.
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