only u can stop it

so mula2, exammmm. kena start study daahhh.

two, yea hidup tnpa mslah mmg memboringkan. either its bcuz u urself is causing it or it might be others. hidup bukan hidup tnpa mslah. true ? kinda. hidup tnpa org berckp xseronok. btul ? hahah.

so i heard it, firstly, never ever crossed my mind, i was so shocckedd. n aku panaihhh st aaa. mcm dok jerit2 n then m like hmm lantak la. it has to stop. this cannot go on.

soooo. question is. sampai bila aiman? sampai bila ? i do know what to do, n what not to do. how to do it. n perrrtttyy much know what to say. n i know im not alone. its like a good news, to some. i just need to stick to it n be READY! n its not soo complicated i guess. its just, im not doing it. for some reason idky. maybe im too lazy or yeah m scared or thinking too much. this is when we say JUST DO IT ! i know it doesnt hurt, n il be happier actuallyyy. or i just dont wana take the risk n face the stares n stuffs n stuffs. its not so simple la actually. i have to be mentally n emotionally prepared n strong. hahaha. physically too perhaps just in case i wana beat myself up or others wana beat me up. heehhe.

my mum just said m plain lazy, oh god, so true. keja tiap2 mlm chat, maen, tidoq, dgq lagu. wasting time. thats all. gah !

Don’t ever let somebody tell you you can’t do something. Not even me. All right? You got a dream, you gotta protect it. People can’t do somethin’ themselves, they wanna tell you you can’t do it. If you want somethin’, go get it.

n for a mo there aku rsa cm,aaa, tlg a, aku rsa idup aku ada mslh gak, da byk benda g nk fkr, byk benda yg aku kena face sniri, maybe xtau ja, so kena tmbh g ka ? rasa cm xperlu ja. kalo nk tmbh, p la tmbh hidup org len yg mmg suka mslh n complications n whatsoeverrr~

i think this time is hard, i mean for me coz tgkla keadaan sekeliling. tho its like (= !

i nk kta, tp mcm naaa not now. tp bila an? i am quite sure il say yes. but whenn ?

I HAVE TO GET OVER IT SOON SO I DONT HAVE TO THINK ABOUT IT ANYMORE.

the list has to be written down. i have to get up, n do it. n yea study.

oh n btw tht two hours was nice. ive never felt like that for like ages. hehe. sukaaa~ tenang, free, problemless, comfy, secure, safe, its just me. =)