ones ability

isnt it ironic ? i mean. just think.

a sight of certain someone. it can either make ur day, make ur heart beats super fast n u start loosing control. or all of a sudden it ruins ur day n hits ur boiling point. n u start cursing. or u can have this warm feeling n make u smile. or u can have a feeling of wanting more. or a feeling to go to that person, n burry ur face on that persons chest, n just cry. or ul just simply feel like ur floating.

a person can tear u down. a person can push u off the cliff n expects u to die. break ur heart. change ppls perspective towards u. make u loose confidence over almost everything. loose faith n trust. can make u feel miserable at best. restless. hatred. anger. useless. stupid. idiotic. worthless. make u give up on life n say pls kill me. make u go on riot. make u pout. make u feel insecure. a person can make u cry instantly. a person can make u feel as if ur stuck at that stupid moment.

a person can make u happy. a person can calm u down when ur angry. can say its ok even if its not. a person can make sure that it will be ok. can regain ur confidence. can regain ur trust. has the guts to do it. can be sure about sth n believes in it. can bring ur normalself back. the u that u used to be. can make u feel safe. make u feel secure. make u feel that theres ntg else to worry about. make u feel free. make u feel so lucky. make u feel complete. a person can make u get back on track. back standing on ur two feet. n kick ppls ass !

a person can say or do things that ul remember for life. be it happy or not. even if u dont want to remember it. yes there are parts which i wish i can erase. i need it to be erased.

i have to. i have to get up. again. like it or not. i mustnt be thinking about it. i shudnt be. i shudnt give a damn about it. why should i rite?

i have everything i need rite here, rite now. i have my awesome parents. i have nice siblings. i have super duper nice friends/family. n my 'special friend' ^_^

i shudnt be wasting my time on matters like that. i didnt create it anyways.

- total crap, sorry. haha. just felt like saying how ppl around u can totally affect u. how they can change u. whether u want it or u like it, it happens. which in a day, like today. during the day time, i can say its bullshit. but then later at night, i feel so good. ^_^ -