sebenarnya, aku baru angkat tong gas. hahah. yeah aku syok. idk la how many kilo but fuhhh. i prefer carrying weights than jog. =.= mmg la an aku tinggi.
the point here is actually. define raya.
i do know the real meaning well its not actually, it differs from individual to individual. it depends on ur point of view. my answer was family and friends. i do know the answer. but i never quite gave a thought about it. after all this years. tx malina coz u pointed that out. so, yes m proud of myself coz i tolong bukak daun ketupat, i know bukakk jaaaa haha esok baru nk balut n whatnot but the thing is i did it all by myself n i managed to do it n i had fun. well i took lotsaaaa breaks of coz. i wat sat i p kacau daddy, p men kucing n merapu2. but anyways la. =) it took me hours of coz. hehe
family first. yes. true. lets use the word at least. n make sure u use it frequently. tho, i dont have a perfect family, completed with bros n sis n small bros n siss, hey at least i have my parents with me. at least i get to sambut raya with them. at least they r still around n i get to irritate n laugh at my dad n my mum. hahha. at least im living with them. who else do i have if not my parents n granma ? i live with them. so who else do i depend on if not them ? n not forgetting d kucings. i love them very much. yes. they r in my family list. it doesnt matter u have fun or not, doesnt matter it sucks or its ruined by sth, i have my parents. if they r not here, i wont be here. yes i do admit im not a good daughter afterrall, but dont say im not trying. just i always follow my feelings n starts screaming profanities because im not matured enough n i dont think wisely. i know whats right n whats not. i should really learn how to get control of things in me. thats y theres this book called 7 habits of highly effective teenagers. hahah. seriously.
n actually, my mums family, her side i mean, it is huge. just i dont know them. n we r not close. idk their names btw. but lets try n list. ok so firsly, i have my pakngah n makngah. n then from them theres kak long, abang zali n kak diana. n from kak long thres iman n idk tht baby boys nme, i only seen him once i guess. he cries a lot like me when i was a baby. n then abang zali n kak hajar ada darwish which sometimes i do wish i can strangle him. haha. but hes a very briliant boy. n then kak diana x lagi.
n then arwah paksu. i used to rmb, well hes really nice, i rmbd i called him up or he called me, at the time where i really need someone to talk to. i was telling him things n i was crying away. seriously it was a nitemare at home that time. we go to a lot of kenduris together, he brings me out to gurney, gives me money too n let me buy whatever i want. hes very close to my mum. n there goes my extended cousins. first is abg wan. ( mind u, idk whtsup with them dah ) n then abang hafiz. n then kak i forgot her name ! omg ! kak izzati. omg. that freaked me out. n then kak nadiah. im closer to kak nadiah.dlu la. now shes doing pharmacy idk where. n then hidayat. same age as me. we use to have crushes kot.but seriously, the last time i saw him, he doesnt look tht bad. haha. n then theres i forgot. n yeah. n then the other one nurul. n maksu. their kampung is in pahang.
n then theres this guy. busu. do not ask me y we call him dat. n i still dk his name. he was the one who introduced me to songs n pc games. haha. his er 20 now i guess. dulu rapat la, slalu men2 suma. n yeah perhaps phones also.
n then theres idk mak wat la. she has 10 kidssss. yeahh. n i only know one is no two abang, one sis n one small sis which is 8 n one same age as me. thats all i know. yeah the abg who was like igt x abang dukung aritu ? m likeee hurhhhh ? ~
n then theres mak lang. i jsut asked my mum act. haha. she has no kids tho. n ive never seen pak lang. or i haveee...
n then theres aziz. idk hes pak wat. haha. i know he smokes n i hate it ! n anak dia ada gak keja cni. sha sth. i forgotttt.
n then. kak cik. anak 6 kot. kak cik is my csn. yes. sma ngn kak isma n mum is mak chaq. is taht how we speelll ? haha. anak dia suma of coz bsaq2 than me. haha. n ada tis boy nama dia farabi, idk how to speel butttt i know, hes so big that the doctor ckp if he xmkn nasi a year or two he wont die. just imagine.
n then ada g kottt. but i xtau. yeah.
sebenarnya, family shudnt be a sensitive issue. adek beradek shudnt be a senstve issue. for me i mean. bukannya aku ni anak yatim, bru kluaq dari orphanage. no. not at all. i have sbnrnya i have evertn. its just how i take it. but sometimes, bila mmg u cannot avoid it, it does happen. anyways. at least i do really have a family. =) nothings perfect rite. n do not compare. n do not complain. i know all those. just i act immaturely so terkeluar la benda2 yg x sedap utk didengari. watch ur words.
so mmg. my lifes like that. things sucks. i suck. so be it. nothing n nobody is perfect. life must go on. live with it. accept it. mmg life mcm ni, nak wt cmna. at least im not in pakistan or palestin war here n there n blood everywhere n poverty, or mcm poor countries mcm romania human n sex trafficking. i m very lucky i m not like that. i have a father who loves me n treats me well n teaches a lot of things. i have a mother who reallyyy loves me n would do anything. i have a father who has been working hard, making sure i get clthes, food n good education. i have a mother who act cares a lot about me.
insyaAllah, when i go to university, idont wnt my dad or mum to call me, but i myself want to call them up. n ask how they r n tell them hows life there. i wnt to be the want to call them. webcam wud be very nice too.
i can smell rendang. too bad xle taste. gah !
n then, abg hozair n kak noran. kak noran is cool tho ive never been out with her ka pa. just on the phone normally. oh n i luahkn my prasaan smpai terjerit2. haha. abg hozair arrr, dia arr, suka wt lawak. hahah. n then abg rafael, dia tuuu ~ hehe. kak raudha. =) shes my second idol. need i say more ? from the way she dresses, n her hair, n her entah. i suka.
did i tell u, i was like tahan nk peee smlm after ttn. cam nk ngeh tahan. haha. dh la daddy bwk slow satu, n then smpai2 mrs lim pulak adaa. xkan la aku x p sembang. so i did la an. n ohmigod. i almost peed in my jeans. hahaha. n my converse is like brand new. n i cuci all my kasut. heee. tinggai beg skola n sth. n kerja acc yg idk la how to siapkn. english essay i can manage it. study mths blum g. n keja addmts bole saja !
n sbnrnya, my dads side pun ada gak. but not directly related la. ahmas nya relatives suma bykk. but i never knew em. i tau er aritu ada uncle n aunty tu mai umah. i took pics with them mannn. hahah. n then ada aunty doreen. n then idk. haha. ada la.
for friends. i like them to be as friends/family. coz hey we do spend time like from 7 till almost 2 five days a week. tu xtrmsok blek umah chatting g, sms g, ttn g. we go thru dramas together. we share stupid things togther. we crap together. i do have my weird extended family of friends. ul find that weird part later.
so firstly. i have my sister. i m still at times very touched wehn u become sister2. sapa dia tuuu ? amalina lah. =) dari form one sejak pindah smpai skg. n smpai tua tau. n smpai we have a cup of tea perhaps at ur garden or mine with fruit cake k. hahaha. n ur again the first human being to ever come so damn close to my most precious butt okayyy. hahah. the talks. the advices. the laughs. the -) hahaha. suma lah. n dont forget to kidnap me when u can drive a car okayyy... n the most important thing, thank u so much for putting up with me. ta ta ta ! n listen to me. n not slapping my face. n saying ily. ur a good listener n adivisor. hehe. be a doctor okayy. doctor utk itu2.
n then my sister pulak. my chinese sister. hehehe. tan xin yee nmnya. mmg the tan family pun. we dont talk so often, but do stay in contact. still laugh at the same jokes. n do rmb old stuff. XD
n then. my dad. haha. syahmie. n my uncle ( dads friend ) naim. n then my bro, pite. n then. hehe. seseorg yg slallu call me buchukk2 n ask me to mandi. gah !
anis. shes actually my step mum/ my anak. how anak was me n sha, we r evil partners, we did unpleasant things, ( act we violated aniss rights la ) n dpt la anis. idont get it anyways. n i think this is how it went kot actually. hehehe. suda lupaa. anis n sha started this year. the barneyy songgg. the gla2 byk mrpu. the visions we made. hahah. without u guys, id die in 4sc4. pls do rmb that all the time ! u guys are great.
so sbnrnya, for me, raya is about to appreciate things u have. to treasure it. to be thankful that u are still alive n u have a roof on top of ur head. u have ur awesome parents. u have ur great sibling. n u have awesome n wonderful friends/family.
so raya first, kulim. second baling. third pg. fourth cni. fifth hosp. sixth a. i dont like !
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