all these things i hate

1. hey at least m not so emo mcm dulu


2. hey at least i dont think bout dieing n losing hope n all those like i alwiz do


3. hey at least i can still tink a tiny yinny winny bit of positive stuff


4. hey at least my penknife is not my bestfriend


5. hey at least i can still tink

- all the nice2 stuff yg i nk tulis.. well... cut it short.. i have to b disciplined.. lter la go on.. xdk mood.. n thank u pitee coz tman me.. :) n cut it short im really my dads secretary n i have to read moreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee n i learned bout wills.. i mean seriously daddys da bomb.. hahahha.. i mean he tau byk bnda.. tgk la umo dia pun bapa.. nnti la tu...

soooooooooo... jz the thing is... pitee cita la esok the perak ting suma.. m like besnya.. told him to take lotsa pixies n msg me.. hehe.. :)

i brani nk tnya coz i rasa cm.. oh cmon.. i alredy fill likee shit.. so what the fuck rite ? y not make it more an ?

so dr lunch time kot i dh pelik balek.. then 6 tu mmg bengang ah.. coz of the all aiman5!!! xpa ah.. then dinner.. ok... time tu.. sth just crossed my mind.. she knws tht theres this thing called perak trip.. she evn mentioned or me or sth we did talk about it tdi during day time on the way to her office.. she din say a word to ask me wther ur interested or not or anytin at all.. ok.. its ok.. i accept that..


so tadi.. time mkn la.. daddy pun ada.. i jz asked.. maaa... can i go for tht perak trip.. rizal tnya blek bout wat suma..


first ting she said was no.. i xkata pa pun.. i jz tnya boley p x... aku dh agk dah pun la.. aku sja ja tnya.. so dad as usual time cnni dia akn tnya la put in interest..


so tnya la sapa p.. i ckp la pitee adam azneer azim suma p.. so dads like oh so they cn tke care of u la. i said yeah.. then tnya gals sapa p m like atirah pun p tan sha suma geng p.. then like owhh..
dads keep askin pitee p suma..he dok kata ah its ok la pitee is going.. can take care of her..


actually daddy bgi.. ++ pitee lagi dia bg...


aku tau.. she dok kata awwat tnya skang.. mcm mana nk plan.. m like if tnya dua minggu pun wts ur anser.. dia sengap.. pergh la.. xyah dok wat cmtu la..


then dad tnya la bapa org nk p suma n all.. then bus ka apa.. then tnya so how u wana go or not.. m like xpyh la.. if aku p pun aku mmg tau she xcool.. wat keciwa ja.. haahahhah.. so dia tnya g xpla.. dad ckp.. u go la tgk tmrw mrning how.. if got plce u go la.. xdk balek.. i said no la.. xpyhla.. then she boley ckp well both la kata merajuk ah... then he ckp g.. evn if ur mum let u dont wna go.. m like no... ptot ka aku p cmtu?

xpena kalo aku kluar ngn kawan ka pa aku blek umah dlm keadaan aman tau ak? even frens cming over.. nnti sure kata u nnti with ur frens u lupa dunia suma.. fuck la.. slalu ka aku ada member kat umah? slma ni yg aku ngn ang seumur idup aku tu pa? xcukup ka?! aku nk spend ngn org len sat pun xley ka? xley kaaaaaa>?

then mcm tdi.. i tot bole la p cycle ngn pite.. nk exrcise suma.. he mai la.. then mamat nk repair lampu tu pun mai.. mmg tau dia nk mai.. i tot i cn still go out since parents ada kat umah.. dhla kan.. but tgk2 suma dok bising3 then kata la kt pitee xjdi.. soh dia blek suma.. ada rizal nk soh pitee water the plnts.. hahahaha.. naaa. i did it la.. xsggup aku biaq pitee cmtu.. he stayed men kucing suma.. thank u :).. ada member for tht time.. tpi yeah la lpas tu rizal dok bising la suma la.. dok xok3!!! aku smpai bengang gila smpai nk nges xkata pa.. dok kalot apa sgt.. pdhl tgk tdi aku yg first siap nk kluar umah.. haih.. sedey btul.. he dok bising kcg xmkn lagi la nnti nk kluar la.. m like wtf kamu.. aku tau la plants ang.. aku dh water dah.. aku act nk kluar ngn pitee tp i stayed n wtered the plnts.. ang nk pa g? yeah aku tau mana g pntg.. bapak ang ka pitee.. mmg la bapak aku tpi an.. slalu ka pun aku kluar?//

errrr.........

but ini coz m the only one at home.. i love it.. :) heee... tramt sgt,,

so i can imgine la if esok aku p.. dhla blek lmbt.. aku xtau pa nk jdi...



aku benci tau ak if org syg aku sgt2... aku benci.. ni lah mslh aku.. dpt ksh syg terlebey..

cni ah jdi.. sapa g kan if not my mum...

dak eh.. aku xrasa pa.. suma ada.. sket ati.. geram.. marah.. sumaaaaaaaaa la ada... thn ngeh tu jgn tnya la bapa kali.. aku thn smpai skang xley nges da...

so as usual.. nk wt aku sdp ati.. dad ckp esok i keja susah la ckit.. - atirah p, pitee p.. apa sushnya.. - then dia pun ckp xpla u stay at home jg ur mum.. so to speak.. aku nods la sgp ja la..

then dia kta dok cita che che aritu ilang dia tros cancel gold coast suma.. iknw.. i und dat.. he ckp xpla nxt time boley p.. i knw.. i und.. its ok.. no big pun..

then mula la she ckp.. kita nk enjoy sat ja.. - the smbgn is kita kna igt tuhan.. kena igt mati.. bla5.. alim la kan.. sory to say.. aku dh bengang gila.. nseb bek she x smbg.. by dat time i dh blah.. - aku tau la.. xpyh dok ulang.. bilanya aku dpt p trip ngn kwn aku n enjjoy? lpas aku mati ?

slalu cnni an daddy cm nk amek ati ah.. jgn bg sedey sgt..


so dad tnya last time to confirm.. turned to her and ask so ur really not ok with it la? shes like no.. geleng2.. so he ckp ok.. ntg to discuss anymre..

yeah.. mmg ntg pun...


n i ckp la.. stop asking me about it la.. bukan p pun.. i saja ja tnya.. i dont wna go.. i knw its tmrw.. too late.. but i just nk tnya nk tgk ja.. evn i tnya dr dulu lg pun sma ja...

so there u have it.. u guys dok tnya go n try suma.. nak tau sgt.. there u have it.. i tried.. n as i told u.. many5 times.. sama ja.. xdk beza.. smpai aku mti xdk beza.. wat sket ati ja..

n pls.. idc.. dont go n get her phne num n ask her or ask on my behalf.. its thank u very much for ur concern n ur big heart... u can forget about it..

goodnyte...

- let me sleep in peace... -