amalina bru cita to me.. first few days of us chatting in form 1.. meanin i bru mai sini la.. bru ja blek skola.. i tink sejam ja kowt.. n m like awat x wat agama g? kita ada ini itu g.. tu aku bru blek skola tuh...
yeha.. i have to admit.. aku pulun gila kot.. till ewrrr.. half or form two tu habes lah.. ahahha.. yeah pulun.. wat dou expect.. smpai kna ckp aiman stop.. watch tv and take a break.. ahahahha.. funny i knw... homewrk xpna xsiap.. tido aku sntiasa jaga.. xdk eh 4 jam tiap2 ari ka.. tido pun tops 2 kot.. then mkn ikut time.. ahahhaha.. n aku xmerapu ngn choco n icecream.. besa ja.. makan pun time tu xbyk g ah.. but building up.. tu lah.. aku rjen dulu.. ahahhaa.. skang aku xtau la...
so mcm ni la.. do u see wer m going? well act i dont too.. but along the way perhaps il get the key word.. :) i mean.. the key la..
------------- hey rizal can be my pendorong ? hes my dad.. my one n only daddy.. hes eaten more salt n rice.. he knws lotsa stuff... hes safe.. wat cn possibly go wrong ? n i dont have serious issues with him.. i adore him. i admirehim.. i love him.. without even tryin or doing anytin.. wehee..
i so lurve this idea.. :D
so lets look at 2009... trok.. pmr lagi.. study.. tah.. yeah.. truth is.. m not satisfied.. about all... studies la an... i knw i can do better.. tgk la dulu.. im much more better.. the proof is there.. y cant i now...
tgk study lu... mmg esok exam arini bru nk cri buku kowtt.. ada stgh oh xpla.. leave it to god.. apa kes ? igt g dulu.. i igt azri tnya.. i cita kat azri suma.. at least plg trok pun dua minggu bfre exam strt study da.. wic i did la.. n diz yer kot.. azri tnya cna study suma.. m like xstrt g.. hes like bkn dulu ckp kna two wiks bfre ? luk at datttt.. wt happen to me ? n look wt happen to azri ? meningkat.. aiman2.. aku xtau la... tlg ah... ko nk ada duet x besar nnti ? ko nk keja pa bsar nnti ? ko nk nganga ?
then homework..i still do em.. tpi tah.. not satisfying la.. cmpred to dulu... mmg by ptg tuh.. tgk la.. dulu aku mana da tido ptg... mana da crapppppppppppp byk sgt... skng blek2 ja umah xmkn x apa on pc.. dulu by ptg siap dh hmwrk... plg2 pun ada gak ckit mlm.. mke sure siap.. xpna p skola tnpa ckp weh aku xwat g.. ha serious.. btul.. tis year keja aku tiru org nya hmwrk.. mai skola tiru... haih.. so mnydhkan. wtf la.. or x.. jz ckp.. weh aku xwat g.. ah oke. wteva.. fuck gila an...apa nihhhhhh...
then tido aku.. mg.. i igt.. habbit mmg.. tido 4 jam ja.. tu suka dmam n trok tu.. i have to stop.. b tio at leat by 12+ la.. bgn besala school time.. if not pun by 10... eloknya 8+la... skang nih.. aku xtau la my sleepin mcm mana... i really want n need to stop.. pls und that...
mkn... aku xtau.. but eh.. dh byk ari aku xmkn choco or icecream.. weheeee !
so aku fikir la.. next yewar.. dah form four..
things yg kena face..
NEW :
classroom, friends no more the a3 haih puki gila.. ahaahha.. xsuka.. new tcers yg aku xbp minat.. new subs.. erally have to pay att dont play around esp dkt ttn.. i raelly wish i can go ttn yg wer m all alone mcm dulu msn.. aku xd member walaupun aku dok blkg tpi aku wat keja aku phm pa mrlim ajar wel yeah la aku dgr dia ckp pa.. tis year.. hampeh.. aku dok sebok sembang ngn gha la suma.. kne stop..if can.. i wud say to gha we have to stop tlking.. if xley gak.. we stay apart jap. i knw i sound so bad.. but come on.. susah la... und me ? ah watan i xdk prob.. if nk bsg2 pun sat ja ngn bro ka then dah abes..
lagiii errr yeah kita akan lg bz dr dulu.. m tinkin bout koko tho.. ahhhaha.. aku xtau la pa jdi.. nyeah idt next year boley stay anytime all of a sudden i want. spa nk dok ngan ahma an ? tu xpla.. discuss with em later... so kna la jugak i tau.. ink pgkp n volley.. club xtau.. plsla.. active la ckit.. p la men2.. ka... adoi.... tolong ah aiman.. apa nk jadi! + with assignments folio la.. tmbh2 subj bru tuhh... serious.. i have to stop playin around and manage my time like seriously as if m gona die tmrw... ahahahah... xpla.. chill.. tke it ez.. n yeah ptg tuh aft a so call stressful day ahhaah tlg lah cycle ka.. i wish i cn cycle wit pitee slalu.. tpi cm dak ja.. xyah la tu.. cycle ja alone..
so mke sure keja hmwrk tiptop.. tido mkn health kna jaga..
so tu lah.. i have to train frm now.. esp a new femly member is cmg.. na it wont be hard la. but lets prepare for the worse just in case rite... so pls.. i hope u guys und.. like really do..
n yeah.. mmg la.. m not so thtttttttt ok lagi.. it tkes time k.. so pls.. give me time.. il b ok.. i m fine.. i m ok.. n its ok.. oke ? und tht...
so yea.. in tis.. tis comes to the plan la.. disiplin la! kna rajen ! kna ada mood ! xdk mood pun xyah la dok cri nk bgi ada mood ! jgn layan perasaan la man ! use ur fuckin brain !
soo..mula2.. yeah.. enjoy ur life.. if the way u want to enjoy for exmple.. nk kluar.. yes.. its true.. thts y kna slallu kluar go out going plces better travel.. y so? coz ul feel much more open.. lg free.. and the way u tink.. ul have a wider perspective towards anytin.. like seriously.. for ex.. y racism hapens.. coz dpa xp mana.. theyre just stuck in one population ka or no its species or we say klgn depa ja.. tu depa xtau pa.. mix around.. socialize.. talk.. learn.. or just go out n observe.. n just simply enjoy the beauty in life.. aite ? so yeah.. in tis.. i have to learn how to enjy my life.. coz my way n plan of enjyin life will never happen.. ehehe..its ok la.. wat to do rite.. hey at least im stil lucky.. i still have mney.. i have food, shlter. clothing.. wat more do i want to ask..
tu kadang2.. yeah.. slow talk with ur prents.. tell em.. talk to em.. but i rsa cm.. who m i sayin all tis to em ? theyre my prents.. m just a 15 year old kid.. xcukp ka apa dpa bg ? i mean isnt enuf ? u get almst evrtn u want.. but yeah i knw the most ting tht u want mmg xdpt.. but btui la.. stuff tht u relly wnt u wont get it rite ? what more can i say.. yeah... life is never fair.. n n but afterall its nt the end of life..
so i do feel mcm inconsiderate.. n esp if rite now prents are bz n all. xptot la.. aku tau aku kejam.. tpi aku rasa aku xla sekejam smpai mcm tu...
so mcm tah.. bek i jz wat bodo. i tau.. smpai bila kan.. smpai one day la na.. jz forget about jap.. let me recover.. get myself back..
tho yes.. i have to admit.. ive missed hell lot of fun yest.. its fun. its adventurous.. n its sth ive neva been thru.. n wat i want is do sth new.. try new stuf.. adeh.. that is really wat i want. n yes.. they'l never b a trip like tht anymre aite ? so i gz i jz have to wait.. n see la kan.. wile suma org dah feel da.. dah exprience dah.. m alwiz a step bhind frm others.. wat to do.. il live with it.. live with empty well err memories of those.. wile others live with happy n fun memory of those...
hey.. tpi i tgk an.. bes nya dpa.. at least dpa happy.. p sana suma.. thts very nice.. :)
dah.. agk blurr.. hahahaha...
so yeah.. if i xdpt wat tu.. at least.. come on la.. byk bnda dlm dunia g yg boley wat.. maybe others enjoy the other way tho i do want to enjoy the other way.. but i jz cant. so i have to find other ways..msh dlm proses tho.. xpa.. tke it ez.. slow2.. no rushy2 oke ?
dont waste ur time.. stop onlining la.. if ya pun jap ja.. games tu m not really dah. i play em to act release tension.. like rubics.. mcm ni la.. as i sllau ckp.. i alwiz do sth for a reaason.. so mcm tu la.. so rubics n games.. therye ok la.. online ni la.. i have to stop.. its a waste of time.. drpd aku wey jap.. blog ppun.. hahahaha... ok2.. slow2.. take it ez.. so drpd aku dok bzir masa typing2 blabbing away mite as well i go do sth else.. music or my room or rds rite ? its ok bout tht. slow2..
errr lagi ahh.. blur la...
oh yeah... skali aku kata xnk.. aku mmg xnk.. jgn pksa.. jgn push... org xnk xnk la kan.. dh la tu.. susah nk phm ka ? - mum -
i have to keep rminding myself..
You are still alive !
You are not dead !
Do something about it !
app.. i dont really feel suffocated rite now.. fuhhh..
ok dah.. aku mls da nk blog.. wna clean my room up.. its not act cleanin.. its throwing endless craps.. ahhaha.. tu x arrange suma g.. adeh..
xpa3.. slow.. tke it ez.. relax.. enjoy ur life..
:)
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