moment

i feel guilty..

i feel stupid..

but then again i have to consider..

yeah.. i feel very guilty..

bersalah.. yg agak teruk..

like y m i doing this...

ive neva been taught to be that way..

at all..

by anyone..

or even myself..

i have to apologise..

coz i know..

its wrong..

haix..

what have i done again

i cant be selfish

and at the same time

i cant be cruel

balance

thats wat i need

i hope..

n yeah.. bebai kes.. the bebai comes knocking once in a wile.. but kan ada musim bebai. like once mmg like lama gila gak ah bebai. suma xkna. then now its here again. but guess what?! its worse than last time. if u say dulu my bebai is scary, now its worse. like at leaszt dulu i dont tend to smash everything tht i touch or in front of my face. i dont tend to scream at ppl. or talk harshly. now its omg. yeah considered pretty violent at times. like washing dishes, nk pecah pinggan tu pa.. dang.. i need help.. soon. or nnti kang suma bnda pecah..

i have to stop