baggy pants..

935 pm



weeeeeeeeeeeee.. raudhas cmin home!!! ley ah jamin.. hehe..



n shes like.. jamming??? wey sedar ahh ckit.. lu dah form 3.. n m like.. ishhhh.. fuck ahh!!!



but wtf.. shes cmin home.. rilek ahh st.. aman idup ckit ja la.. since i cant join her wtchn lte nite muvis.. crappin tu kena kureng.. haish.. n shes gona b here sat ja.. then esok nk g dinner.. god knows wer la nk p.. if pg.. at least ada gk la some ideas.. mcm la mamat tuh nk bawak kitorg p pg.. pergh... in our dreams.. hmm.. nods..



then next day lgi chun... da skola.. n shes like jgn ahh p.. we ley p tgk citer ka pa.. she wants to bring me out.. :D.. thank u sista!! i love u.. hehe.. but still.. ill go la to school.. since evryones like p la wey.. p..

ppl.. sempena my bday.. m givin u guys cuti peristiwa.. ahahahha... bout surat nk bgi zurina tu xpa.. i cn print it for u.. n the signature tu.. tlg bgi sample then i try n forge it. k3??

ahahhahah.. cm ahh aku ni pro sgt..

okies2.. arini.. - aku cm kureng mud.. perfffggghhh... -

so bgn2.. msg2.. :D

then mandi suma.. waited cam an hour plus for ma mum.. ok la.. nseb bek la sony like no other tu tlh menemaniku.. ahahahha.. tpi cm suma lagu xkena ja... fuck..

then dia ckp ahh mula2 tu nk p cmal n tesco.. i waslike vmal??? yeah nk p mkn..

then tunggu punya tunggu.. x p!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! perghhhhh.. dia ckp ohh da lmbt dah.. kita xyah p ahh.. then i was like fineeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..... x yh p dahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..

then p ja la laundry n ros.. tym laundry tu.. abang kesayangan ku call!!! he ckp cm na stni jadi x? i was like wey ur serious?? i tot it was just a joke.. ahhahaha.. so bantai la apa ada dlm my head tu ma mum n she bgi.. i was like yay!!!!!! dpt kuar!!! z dok umah!!! yezzzaaaaa!!!! hahahah.. coz its a habbit ari jumaat x dok umah.. msti at least do sth.. i was kinda like hpoin ma mum to say jom p detouch.. then bgi hint to the sisters ask to push ma mum to let me do straitenin!!! tpi x... perghh.. next tym i gz then.. haihh.. tu cm pagi2 m like wtf m i gona do today?? - cm la hmwrk n study tu xyah kan.. - so balek2.. nga2.. then kalot2.. then p clubhse..

p sana.. tah.. cm nganga.. ahahha.. cz 1st tym pa wat keja cnni.. so mula2 p chattin2.. nga2..

oh yeah my new bodyguard.. ahahahah.. azim fahmi.. waaaaaaa... aahhahah

so chattin, surf2.. then bru da akai nk wat keja.. tu lama bru boley wat..

so me, fitree, alam, azim.. ok la.. - wen ma mum fetched me.. i mean she came la.. naseb bek dri jauh g i saw her car.. if nt sure i dok mepek2 mkn craps n tym tu nk p beli g sours.. aahaha.. thank god2.. so tdi she was like how come ur d only gal?? m like.. wats wrong wit tht.. ?? --

so i was drownin maself wit nips.. sattu paket.. not gud2.. nti mula ahh.. heaty la.. n dots wud b on my face n penuh on my back n arms.. like mmg byk on ma back.. then those rashes again.. grrr.. elok2..

pastuh.. apple sourz.. ahhaha.. pastuh cloud 9 n twisties.. pastuhh the sours tuu.. hahaha.. i luv lookin at fitreess face wen he mkn tht sour tingy.. comei2.. ahhahahha

so ok la.. wat la gk geo.. x wat pendahuluan n tht 8.1 ja.. then m all set to say to azaha tht m jz doin this so tht i pass my pmr.. perghhhhhhh.. i dont give a shit..

1007pm.. nmpknya kena blah.. before il totally loose ma mud like hell.. so esok.. perghh.. p kenduri.. then ttn.. then dinner.. okies.. xpe2.. i hope i cn cope.. perghh..

- mmg tension ahh skang.. boley p mati ahh.. -

il trash later wen shes gone.. idup ni kan mmg xley aman sat ja pun.. tym2 aku nk wat keja kena ka ang dok sini. kena ka ang p on tv.. x ley ka biaq aku dok sowang2 kt hall ni tym aku msih n ada mud nk wat keja.. stni kalo aku bwk masuk laptop dlm blk kang.. kata aku melyn blue.. kata aku tgk porn..pdhl aku dgr lagu chatting2 ja pun.. tu porn ka?? i fyeala.. i do tht all the tym.. i watc porn al lthe tym.. punkoq hanh ahh.. perghhh.. geram2..

aku xtau pasepa.. evrytym niat aku bek.. sure dia dok mgta sgt.. n aku lupkn niat aku. cz aku sket ati. cm aritu.. aku nk gtqaw dah dia bout hamsty.. tpi dia dok trash2.. bla3.. wat sket ati g.. i sed to myself.. lantak p kat ang ah.h.. padan muka.. aku nkberbek2 ngn ang.. nk cita suma. ang wat cnni kt aku.. fine.. aku xkn gtaw pa2. senang.. aman idup aku. lantak p ahh..

n2.. mmg susah tul idup ngn org yg kalot.. ckit2 nk bsg. pdhl xdk pa pun.. rilek ahh man.. pa kes sikit2 nk bising.. angkat beg letak ats almari ja pun tlg my dad dok nk bsg2.. ko kecoh pa?? tu i din actaully get pissed. wel lwas abit. but my dad dok wt muka funny dia dok bgi huge n wide n funny n yet cute my daddy face like.. so i pun gelak2. senyum2 wat rilek.. kalo x tdi da maki gak ahh.. angkat beg ja pun.. len kali if me n ma dad nk wt keja.. blah ahh.. tok sah menyebok.. xdk beza pun.. wel ada la beza.. dunia x aman.. tu dt tym dia g kl.. fuhh.. aman damai idup.. tinggl me n daddy ja.. perghhhhhhhhhh.. ff..

slipknot- psychosocial

- sth apen to adam.. i even teragk2 to msg him.. wel did .. tu pun tanya bout folio geo just to cover up just in case phone dia wit his parents.. i hope evrtns fine.. --

-pandangan baru n perubahan sikap.. caughtmy eye.. idk wt m tryna say or mean tho.. il tink bout i tlter.. -

my dad.. just like tan.. he sweats like damn hel a lot.. mcm bru mandi siyot tadi.. then i was like u just bathed is it? he said. yeah u wan a hug from me..? i was like yeah y not? i dont mind.. ahhaha..

n fuck.. tym nk exam nih.. ma mums like showing signs shes gona fall sick again..

fine.. bare with it aiman.. just bare.. dah la nedt week like monday til thurs my dad wud b workin full tym n bz.. thank u god.. thank u. i so dont appreciate it.. life cnt get any better..

slipknot - the nameless

ok2.. so mmg benda nih dh lama.. last month.. but still ... i dint go for sggs carvinal.. altho i heard it wasnt as nice as last two years.. but still i cud meet em al n all n all.. perghhh..

ok2.. let me mourn sat.. cn i ??

like this.. ppl ckp yes mmg the past is wat u r.. i agree.. the past is who i m now.. but2.. wats the point of rmbing the past if it just hurts u n hurts u tht u cnt n ur nt n ul neva eva b there again.. duhh.. ur nt even near to the place.. so it hurts me coz m just nt evn there anymre.. so im forgettin it.. yes i agree.. if u ask me bout my life in pg.. probably part of it ive forgotten bout it.. so yeah no one pretty much knws hows my lifes like back in pg.. well part of it malina ja tau. she knws pretty much byk gak ahh.. then tan,yash,geeha..

i just dont want to rmb it.. mcm wats d point.. but sme may say its gud n all n part of ur life.. thts wat my mum says.. but she'l neva und.. its my life. used to..

n its no point pun if i let evrtn out.. n smpai nges suma to someone.. coz its jst not gona help me in anything.. at all..

or even tell ppl.. no point.. useless man..

well thts wat i tink.. some may say u shud rmb it n all.. its part of u rlife..

lemme tell u sth.. tht part of my life.. id like to forget bout it.. put it aside.. n try to move on.. evntho i dont pretty much seem like i cn.. ill survive

kinda like lost huh???

yeah.. to move on is to forget the past.. tho its not correct but il jz go on..

haih.. all of this part.. all the above.. is goin no where!! of cz its not!!!

wat will then?

miss..

even the word itself is mkin me teary.. -- yeah i know adam.. gals.. i cnt help it.. m still a gal tho with a boys name.. --

after pmr.. tym cuti.. im gona get out of asspee.. idc wer.. just get me out of here..

--- hahahaha.. aiman2.. u tink u actually can?? nk get out of rumah pun kira considered lucky la.. ---

yeah.. i admitt.. if dh lama gila2 x p pg.. well like 2minggu kan.. then wen ma parents ckp ok ur goin to pg tomorrw.. fuhhh.. m like.. yes.. at last.. at least m out of asspee.. itl b abonus if dpt tido pg for a nite.. mg la kat otel pun.. but at least. m like yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! il b out of asspee!!! yeah dt day i was jumping sky high. even yash was like aiman r u ok???

no m not okay..

yeah i misskak sitis food..

i miss the tym i cn go to her n hug her

i miss the tym wer i cn just go to her n yack away any fucking sht i want

i miss talking to her

i mis hugging her

i miss her scent

i miss her

- sket pala dah.. -

yeah its not tht she'l be back again

n its nt that if even she's back.. ma mums gona b cool wit it..

too baddd maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...............

its not my fault i love her..

well wat is my fault actually?

in my whole life

i feel like throwin that fucking damn question straight at ur face..

its nt my fault m the ony gal u have

n plus its a gal

n plus anak tunggal

not my fault i terlebey syg daddy sejk kecik

nt my fault i rpt ngn other ppl since small

well even now..

nt my fault

nt my fault i love n make my fathers children as my own siblings..

well if u dont, do i seem like i care?? n if u already know i do, cant u und???


i know!!!! mourning over anything its so such a waste of tym..

but i cant help it.. i dont get it y must evrything b this way..

hhahaa.. will i ever knoe n figure it out in the first place..

i do envy ppl who have choices in their life.. yg thres yes or no in them..

i envy my siblings.. mmg.. they had vry hard tyms.. at a young age... then suma cm upside dwn n all.. but at least u guys.. u guys have each other.. n i have no one.. n im jealous of tht.. dri dulu g.. u guys r like 2gdr.. mmg la ada xngam n all.. but still u have each other.. n i just dont..

n il neva will.. of cz la i wont..


yeah.. life is alwiz with false hopes n dreams.. but what to do.. u have to lie rite..

perghhh..

n theres alwiz an ending in evrything..

thats life..

facts of life..

bare it..

accept it..

live with it..


i think thts enuff i gues.. evntho byk g nk ckp..

nods..