thank u god!!!

yay!!! thank u god.. since i bgn 1149 tadi pagi.. ive bbeen searchin 4 petrol.. well eventho now actually x jumpa my petrol or my pendorong.. its ok!!! coz im high!!!

wana know why??? *batting eyelashes **

abg rafael, kitorang nk perkenalkan this akak ni keja lecturer baru at umis campus.. u nk kenal x wit her?? or u dh ada special gf??

2 hours later.....

sure.. why not..

aku apa lagi... jerit lompat skiy high!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahaks... i was like smilin like hell tym ttn.. lantak ahh org ckp aku gila.. aku epi gila.. + angau poon ada la sikit...ahaks!!!

haih.. i love being high!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

pastuh.. me n kak noran dok baLas2 msg la carik2 info n all..

me contcting noran n rafael.. her name is azyyati anwar.. hahah

kecik2, putey2, fair2... kemungkinan bakal akak ipar ku.. hehe 2nd akak ipar!!!

pastuh rafael call.. yeap hes giving gud signs ppl!!! epi gila aku.. i was so damn excited wen he called.. dok senyum ckp nyA extra loud kat chennai. lantak ahh depa ckp aku gila.. aku syok

!!! sapa x??!!!

gahgah...

suma org dok usha aku since aku gila terlebey.. hahahax..

n alhamdulillah.. my mum pun syok since nk matchmake diorang.. yeap.. she mmg syg rafael.. fuh.. yeap she pon excited smcm... like me!!!

so we all skang ni.. jadik part tytm matchmaker.. but dad full time.. hahah... my mum ckp she nk buka agency match makin... hahahahaha...

so skang dah bgi num kat rafael.. oh god.. please mke evrythin go well.. ive never been so happy like tis...

ohh n yeah.. xlupe lak.. tadi 7sth kak siti!!!!! call!!!!!!

i was like wtf?!!!! kak ka ni???? i just cudnt blive shes on the line talkin 2 me.. but yeah the whole tym i dgr jer she ckp wateva.. s for me gahgah.. yeap i cried the whole tym.. i didnt say anitin just cried n angguk2 n lisened 2 her.. yeap i miss her dt much.. dari angkat phone till letak dok nanges.. cm ngn pa g...

nnti i nk call dia g... nnti sure nges g.. tu ahh i xnk call diaa coz mmg i akn cry.. gee!!! xpe ahh.. i got big news!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! awat epi sgt tah.. hahah

n2.. yeap.. i nid to carik petrol. or aka pendorong..

oke2.. actually aiman ni sebenrnya xdk prinsip hiduop.. helooo cubala tgk aiman ckit..

if kat skola.. smpai2 ja kelas bukak kasut. dok bersila atas kosi.. pastuh mkn dlm kelas.. boley wor khoo ajar maths indices kat depan aku g mkn spaghety goreng kt blkg.. yeap pungkoq!!!

pastuh xlupa pada suka roll up sleeves.. n jln dlm klass tnpa pakai kasut.. socks ja.. pastuh loudness nya volume tuhh.. no comment.. pastuh dgq lagu g dlm kelas.. smtyms amek gmbar la rekod apa cg ajr or if stai tahap cipan videotape!! pernah siyot buat.. ahakss.. then msg tu jgn dok ckp ahh..

so apa prinsip aiman?? u can c rite wer m goin... ahaks..

( so i actually xdpt my petrol.. gawd.. but xpala.. hhee.. but i have to find it soon!!! )

[ n im talkin to kak siti 4 one hour ++ d.. hehe.. din cry.. m just so hepi!!! ]

thank u god!!!

well my aim la..

mula2 tym emo gila2.. my aim is to only make my parents happy.. by gettin gud grades.. 2ja my aim.. n my hapines n my hopes n all bout me.. gone!!! the ony imprtnt ting is ma parents being hepi.. so meanin me being high n loud xdk la since il never think of my happiness except my parents happines..

[ im not at all ready 4 2mroow.. ni pon bru ja siap sej.. gawd.. oh well i m gona sleep late anyway.. latest by 2 ]

ok2.. so then when 2009 started, yeap i wasnt s emo s i expected and predicted.. n thta gud.. just ada la emo.. but ok la.. not like u know.. all alone.. al pure emo all black, with pierces on me.. all black.. hair covering my eye n part of my face.. xdk la seteruk tu..

but mostly now my life is like up n down.. never constant.. but goshh...

ada emo, ada loose temper.. ada gila3!!!! ada ok2!!! ada borink!!!!!!!!!! ada very bothered and annoyed and bugged and disturbed.. but thts kinda like constantly..

ok

so aim lah.. alwiz nk jdik high.. alwiz.. nk jdik crzy.. yeap baby!!! high!!!!!!!!!!

n tht im in the search of my pendorong.. its either a thing or someone.. i may have found it.. but thts temporary.. im findin sth tht cn last long n really push me and at the same tym help me up n giv moral support.. be there n all.. someone or sth tht cn help me alwiz b high n epi.. lemme finis all my hmwrk.. n nt gorgettin study!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! constantly n continously!!!!!!!!!! smone who can get rid of my emo n be high all the tym..

n2 another aim.. i want to be there 4 everyone n anyone.. ( yeap im nt,.. i know i surely know tht im nt tht type of person. but i wan to.. ) help em out anytym.. be their ear.. just help n make the wurld a bet aplce.. ahaks.. mcmla aku ni bgoih ngt..

to b continued.. 1210 am!!! esk skola!!!! ahaks.. no comment.

xoxo

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but actually the truth is.. im aimless.. idont know wat i want.. n even how i feel n all.. gawd.. but yeah at least i do try t b epi n positive n all.. at least i m.. n i enjoy doing mths again!!! n i finish it!!! just like i used to!!! yay!!! n that even if i msg n all i can switch back to maths or hmwork or watsoever.. like i can just refocus.. yes!!!

next step.. boost my memory.. n also everything!!!

i have to study..

pendorong..

i need to find petrol..

not temporary but it can last..

sth tht cn make me hepy.. if emos comin to drown me, i can switch it up n be high..

i need it.

sth tht can make me go to school everydfay without mengeluh at all..

- gawd.. mood gone to write.. i think its enuff of my petrol.. -

lets see waht else do i have in mind!!1

yeah i knoiw..

live life to the fullest

live my life the way i want it n not being a hipkrit at all..

hu gives a fuck if tht person has probs or issues wit u..rite?

n that alwiz smile..

n live like theres no tomorrow..

and make everyone happy..

n alwiz be happy..

n give n love everythin with full of ma heart n never ever expect anything in return..

n rock on!!!!

ahaks..

( now this guy pulak ckp wat if i say ill fall for u if she doesnt want me.. no... well i cant say no im not gona say yes to u coz i wana b loyal.. since hes so damn down now.. so i cant.. ill jst say... tah.. i cant.. i lvoe this two persons in my life.. but the other one is more.. coz i know that person wudnt hurt me no matter wat.. n that im not scred or ragu2 to love that person with full of ma heart n give tht person my heart too.. but u know wat??!! life aint that easy.. it has to be complicated.. n then we call it life.. geeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 )

i think this is enuff.. its sickening..