A conversation, good one, can really do me a lot of good right now. I would beg for it.

Id rather be left to rot then be danggling by a string or being stuck like an idiot in a moment waiting to be noticed like a pathetic being.

Why is it that when you bloody dont need that person, that person would bloody suffocate you just by their presence or the sound of their breathing makes you feel like stabbing them. Or they just feel so annoying that you wish you can strangle them at their necks and let them not breathe for two minutes. But why is it when you bloody need them the most, they simply dissapear, to add to it, being absent or unavailable by choice. Why.

Now thats far.

Still near ? Errrmmm.

I dont mean to be bad. But I need to let this out.

I dont know why I dont bother or dont want to ask.

And I am not sure whether to pick it up or not or to say something or anything about it. No doubt I miss last time. Ok and now ony I know why I shouldnt bother. Yeaaap. Dont bother. And I erm, aint that open in that matter becausee, errrm, hard to say. I know what to say actually, but I cant just blurt it out like that. It makes me look mean and the worst person you can ever think of. So i dont know what to say. Best is not to talk bout it. Dont bother.