Monday, September 14, 2009

unholy confessions

"I'll try," she said as he walked away.
"Tried not to lose you."
Two vibrant hearts could change.

Nothing tears the being more than deception,
Unmasked fear.
"I'll be here waiting" tested and secure.

Nothing hurts my world,
Just affects the ones around me
When sins deep in my blood,
You'll be the one to fall.

I wish I could be the one,
The one who won't care at all
But being the one on the stand,
I know the way to go, no one's guiding me.
When time soaked with blood turns it's back,
I know it's hard to fall.
Confided in me was your heart
I know it's hurting you, but it's killing me.

(Guitar Solo)

Nothing will last in this life,
Our time is spent constructing,
Now you're perfecting a world... meant to sin.
Constrict your hands around me,
Squeeze 'til I cannot breathe,
This air tastes dead inside me,
Contribute to our plague.
Break all your promises,
Tear down this steadfast wall,
Restraints are useless here,
Tasting salvation's near.

Nothing hurts my world,
Just affects the ones around me
When sins deep in my blood,
You'll be the one to fall.

I wish I could be the one,
The one who won't care at all
But being the one on the stand,
I know the way to go, no one's guiding me.
When time soaked with blood turns it's back,
I know it's hard to fall.
Confided in me was your heart,
I know it's hurtin' you, but it's killing me.

the all star sessions

Just when you thought it was over
The sky turned black and we all fell to Earth
Dead in our tracks, we were frozen in fact
Choking to breathe, then came the seas
Wash away impurities, wash away all that couldn’t be

Everyone will be washed away
Drowning in the hell that we made
I cannot believe that our end is so near

Standing at the end of our world
Breathing in the chaos behold
None will be found, it’s all toppling down
Cities will seethe, none could believe
Wash away impurities, wash away all that couldn’t be

Everyone will be washed away
Drowning in the hell that we made
I cannot believe that our end is so near

Save me
Save me from what will engulf this world
Save us
Save us from the end, save us from ourselves
Save me
Save me from what will engulf this world

Just when you thought it was over
The sky turned black and we all fell to Earth

Everyone will be washed away
Drowning in the hell that we made
I cannot believe that our end is so near

pray for plekhs..

She starts her new diet, of liquor and dick.
Just like hollywood, but laced in sick.
The sun goes down, and so does she.
The sun goes down, and so does she.

Sold out the love she had left with a cut of the throat.
They surround on her, before she strolls to the moat.
The sun goes down, and so does she.
The sun goes down, and so does she.

Count your fucking blessings!
Come on!

Count your blessings, cause I'm counting every lie.
Count your blessings, cause I'm counting every lie,
Counting every lie.

Christ, I'm asking you for just one thing.
I'm asking you for just one thing.

Eradicate, this disease.

Close your eyes,
Pray for plagues,
Oh Lord cleanse this earth,
And bring upon our doomsday.

Close your eyes,
Pray for plagues,
Clense this earth,
Bring our doomsday.

She starts her new diet, of liquor and dick.
Just like hollywood, but laced in sick.
The sun goes down, and so does she.
The sun goes down, and so does she.

So clap your hands to the sound
Of every first born dying now.
Watch the rivers flow with blood,
Death will stand where life once stood.

So clap your hands to the sound
Of every first born dying now.
Watch the rivers turn to blood,
Death will stand where life once stood.

So clap your hands to the sound
Of every first born dying now.
Watch the rivers turn to blood,
Death will stand where life once stood.

Close your eyes,
Pray for plagues,
Clense this earth, bring our doomsday.

when ur heart stops beating

Please understand
This isn't just goodbye
This is I cant stand you
This is where the road crashed into the ocean
It rises all around me
And now we're barely breathing
A thousand faces we'll choose to ignore

Curse my enemies forever
Lets slit our wrists and burn down something beautiful
This desperation leaves me overjoyed
With fading lights that leads us past the lives that we destroyed

I listen to you cry
A cry for less attention
But both my hands are tied
And I'm pushed into the deep end
I listen to you talk but talk is cheap
And my mouth is filled with blood
From trying not to speak
So search for an excuse
And someone to believe you
In foreign dressing rooms
I'm empty with the need to

Curse my enemies forever
Lets slit our wrists and burn down something beautiful
This desperation is leaving me overjoyed
With fading lights that leads us past the lives that we destroyed

Lay rotting where I fall
I'm dead from bad intentions
Suffocated and embalmed
And now all our dreams are cashed in
You swore you wouldnt lose then lost you brain
You make a sound that feels like pain

So please understand
This isnt just goodbye
This is I can't stand you

So please understand

oh wat the fuck >?!

soooooo.. its 923.. rest jap.. dok wat bm n bla2.. english.. tah.. xdk ilham g. ahhaha..

sooooooooooooo.. lets talk bout today. ok xigt sgt. ahahha..em bgn pgi as usual. all nrml. skola pun nrml. i cnt rmb. oh yeah. perhimpunan. cm bodo gila. then em yea blek klas. u knw.. i act xpna ikut ikrar ibrahim.. errrr... mmmm..

so... first sub.. mt.. it was ok.. aku xigt pa.. seriously.. oh yeah b4 tht aku dok mnjerit. mhkmh rayuan was it? till pitee was like ok mahkamah brehat sbntr. yeah i need oxygen. ahahahah.. muka merah kot. ok then em kh. maimun xdk. studied sn bit. chat3. gila2 sikit. then ag. ok ja. its act easy. the hadith n all. its like mini malay u knw. i mean.. sng ah.. ahahah..

then sej.. ha.. wat apen norliah xmsok.. i was doin geo or sth. .al of a suddent, syed ltak this weird blacky tingy on my paper. n i was like * shriekssssss !! * muka len sat.. then was like wow.. ohh.. ow.. arrrhh!!! noo!! dont! geli,.. n lots more. ahahhaha.. name - syafiee'.. haahaha.. ilham drpd sharpie. was also the model for sharpie marker n future kumbang pen. ahahahhaha.. men2 la suma an. then middle of it, i thot, pmr is 24 days more or so, instead of me studyin doin my work yg i missed n i so suppose to do, guess wat m doing ? im act playin with syafiee'. oh my. can u just live with it?

so suppose to do english again. tpi ilham xmai. dok tergelak2 syok3 ngn syafiee' n everyone else. yeah i was loudddd.. screams!!!! like hell!!!! ahahhaha.. sukaaa..

n the habit of walking around without shoes but sox only is so in it.. ugh..

sn was ok. did the paper. i prefer not to lisen to norida. like seriously. she just ugh my brain. i rather not lisen n wat kja len. n study on my own or with lim.

oh yeah. study groups are cmg. so the clubhse n lib. so aft raya an. bwk mknn n kueh raya. weeeeeeeeeee :D

yeah.. tx malina !!!!! chocos!!! drugs.. :D thank u3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

dodol!!! weeeeeee

so tdi, i was like, well past few weeks, two weeks kot, il just get hungry by 11+. great huh.. then il b like lapaq3!!!!! then kuar ah lksa, mcd, piza. suma la weyyyyyyyy.. aiyoo.. so tdi. tym buka, dok mknla, i was like bila nk p johorrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.. nk mknnnnnnnnnnnnnn.. my mum turned to me, look at me frm top to bottom then stopped on my thighs. m like wat r u lookin at? aahahhahaha

marilyn manson - user friendly..

then oh yeah.. went to puan chi. i like her. shes cute. her bm is omg. haahhaha.. her chinese super chun ah. so on my hand, was the jadual waktu penilaian mngh rndah. getaq sat ah. then dpt2. yeah m hepy with it.. its nicee.. mcm ok ja.. sng.. like relaxin..

then bi was.. tahh.. ok ja.. careless.. huhu.. bm was hottt.. ahahahha.. din pay att pun. dok kt cnteen. dhla dpa msak pa tah sdp. aram bbabeee gilaaa..

so blek ngn pitee.. dok bkjaran. otw, met rineshs sis. shes like so sad. nk nges ada oh.. gado ngn her friend. bnda kcik gila. hpfully shes fine. so2 p dkt myvi pgq 9842, nmpk sapa?! !!! hahahaha.. pitee was like omg. i was like awat hang xhbq.. so.. msok2 ja. hafizz.. haahha.. dgn shades dia.. dgn rmbut dia yg spikey tpi xsestai ada skali tu tpi rmbut dia da tumbuh n xperlu pkai cap da.. then muka diaaa.. dia kaleh2 an i was like u knw mcm ahh, ( tilt my head to my rite. . ) hahahha.. mcm melts ah.. comey.. iwas like dt. ahahahha

hafiz la kannnnnnnnn....


haiyoo.. so next tym.. i dont tink i waana buat bek again n volenteer wat keja.. i mean.. ughh.. yeah so there comes again.. move on u fcking arse !!! stop dreamin !!! move on!!!!

oke2.. so its kinda like either il b violent, bebai, scream n yell at evryone, break anytin i see and get slapped by rizal, or make the most pathetic face i can ever have n just have the lowest voice on earth. i choose. patheticness..

ok.. wat the fuck.. leave tht bhind.. n dont ask me wassup.. xdk pa pun.. aku ja wat dramatik lebey.. seriously.. so nvm bout tht.. lifes like that. what the fuck..


soooooooooo.. yeah..so hafiz la an.. em.. went to god knws wer, i knw near msn.. eheh.. em so hafiz went out jap, me n pitee chit chatted dgr2 lagu.. usual stuff.. then p vmal!!!.. xwat pa2 pun..

hafiz dh ada gf.. chun gak ah the gal.. wllpper dia kot.. chun ahh..

sooo.. p vmal.. nga2. then me n pitee lalu eumas. the plce wer we pna brgmbar. tym tu nk blek dah. then both of us was like wey2 jom amek gmba. dulu amek da. then cm dok kejar la hafiz nk pnjm phne. so hafiz waited in the car wile we brgmbar. ahaha.. dua gmba ja pown. xsmpt. n sgn. dhla ngn bju skola. ugh. pergh. xpa. dc la. sooo.. i like d 2nd pic vry much.. haix.. bila la bole dpt.. ugh.. so.. msok2 keta, hafiz wat muka xchun.. ahahha.. dia dpt ja phne dia, dia p usha gmba.. then dok tergelak2 senyum2.. comeyy..

everyday my parents will ask me.. aiman, ur going to school tmrw?

pergh.. ahahha..

n no wnder pmkiran aku ni xsuci.. parents aku nya mind pun x.. ahahahha.. cna la aku ni nk brfkrn suci. ahahahha

soooo.. oh yeah.. u knw.. static electricity some sort.. i have it.. mcm tdi dok men ngn phne, then trkna tgn pitee.. like static.. its not called static. i lupa da pa.. but i knw.. cm tgn cn kuar sparks.. yeah.. its static.. sooo byk kali gak ah jdi.. then sja brush my hand on his, jdi blek.. then he was like weyyy.. pasepa ngn ang wey.. aku tkot wey.. xmo weyy.. skettt.. jgn wey.. aku mcm.. static ja pun..mmg ah sket sikit.. bknnya electric shock mamat oi.. so mcm tu la.. agak chunn.. aku suka.. lama da xjdi. ahahha..yea iknw m weird.. i dont get it.. al thiss.

- say.. all i needd..

then em.. yeah itu sja.. so thank god i xyah pnjt pagar. p umah tirah.. hafiz was like cnani.. cm xdk org ja umah, xpa ah mai dok umah. i was like errrr,, naa.. xpa ahh.. saya pnjat pagar.. saya dah pna buat da.. so p tekan door bell, tunggu jap, cm xdk org, sudeny trbuka.. fuh.. thank god. i was so not in a mud to pnjt pgr. then said goodbyes suma.. i msok la. tunggu la org nk buka pintu n ckp suma an. i dok sana like few mins, nobody came out. i was like wtf la kan. weird..

then em.. yeah blek.. nganga. lena.. then same routine.. then keja..

so il b posting liriks.. waste my time again 4 a wile till latest 1130.

get back to work. hpfully il get the mood back.. n sleep round b4 1.

n sahur maybe few mins of study n tido again..

u knww.. i jz cnt wait 4 school to end. ahahah.. i just wana get out.. soooooo wana go outtt...

then em.. oh yeah.. so dpt d jadual suma.. sejuk ati ah since the timetble cm chun.. then em.. yeah i cant wait for pmr to finish. then i cn just do wteva i want..

well yeah cut my whole 2 to 3 hours of nap time during the afternoon. idk la wat m gona do but m gona do sth.. n i akn kluar almost every ptg i tink.. n kuar cm 5+ ah.. ptg2 aku rasa aku xmelekat kat umah. tpi tgk ah. if my prents dont mind.

n so this raya. the ony thing m lookin forward for is just no posa, food all around. ahahahha.. serious.. fooooooooodddddd ! n yeah i like the bju raya.. so thts all..

kalo bole.. idk la y.. raya aku xmau p mana.. even the first day... ahhahaah.. crap la kan.. just nk dok umah ja.. wel first day mmg la kuar aft tht idk.. so its act in my hands wther i wan a syok raya or not a syok raya. n depends on wat my prents r gona say. if theyre cool with it, ok ah.. if at all i want la. i tink nak kot. to take a break.. soo.. th eony ting is.. melepak2 ah.. itu saja..

hmmmmmm...

ohh yeah.. how bout ang paus??? i got one d.. n app.. my parents yang dok excited n dokminx me buka for dk hw many humpteenth times. pdhl.. aku xtrigt pown.. wtf la kan.. tho yeah i m kinda desperate 4 mney. someone utang me 10bucks. i utang malina 1o bucks.. n i still need to topup.. so my cred tinggl 1 hengget ka less than tht.. so if i x rep, phm2 ja la. il only topup on wed. tu pun dpnds ah. so idc xxdk kredit pun xpla.. i really dont wana caree...

evntho yeah.. wen i study.. i need to msg.. or at least tkan2 some electronic gadgets. ahahah.. cm music stimulates my brain.. tkan2 sth makes me move on.. so yeah plg chun msg sorang la. tpi two pun xpa. but cnt work if 3 n plus2.. mmg jdi klg kbut nk rep. then il b like wtf did i say to u jz now. huhu

dhla.. m bored.. of for lyrics, songs..

n yeah.. school esok..

lifes wonderfull

- in ur dreams !